The Blog About Nothing 1/1 (Happy New Year) Edition

Happy New Year! Welcome to the year 2016, and to The Blog About Nothing. First off, I have to thank David for filling in for me last week. You see, I had a blog that was ready to post on Christmas Day. Due to me not being into holidays, the blog came across from the view of a Scrooge. However, I had an emergency last week that caused me to stop and reevaluate some things. After, I read that blog back and realized that it sounded way too bitter and angry to post on Christmas Day, I deleted it. I then informed David of what I was dealing with, and my decision to delete the blog. He not only understood, but he stepped up big for me.

Billy JoelSo, as I sit here looking back on 2015, and ahead to 2016, I realize that I’m truly at a crossroads. So, listening to Billy Joel’s Vienna makes perfect sense. Vienna is all about being at a crossroads. Whether it’s a crossroads in life, or literally being at a place where you feel like you’re in the middle of it all, it’s a good song to reflect on, and that’s where I am right now. I’m optimistic 2016 will be better, but I’m entering the year carrying the scars of 2015.

I’m sure I’m not alone in that, by the way.

I don’t think it’s possible to just say: New Year, New Me. That’s absolute bullshit. That’s why I don’t make resolutions, because I don’t think you can just erase something, and flip a switch that easily. Sounds like a nice concept though. It’s like a post I saw on my Facebook timeline recently: I’m not the same person I was last year. I would have to agree with that post, because I know I’m not.

I turned 34 a few days ago. I didn’t make a fuss out of it. I didn’t announce it. No, I just had a quiet day at home, where I watched TV, and mostly was left alone. May sound sad to some, but I was happy and content with that. I reflected on the day, and I marveled at how I got to this place. Looking in the mirror, I probably don’t look a day over 17 (I get carded all the time), so to be twice that age, I kind of couldn’t believe I made it to where I am at now.

However, I feel more mature now.

The events of the past year, have been tough. My Mother is the biggest part of my life. I have a relationship with her that will likely be the deepest and strongest bond I will have in my life. She is my friend, my sounding board, and even now, when she’s hurting, she’s probably more worried for me now than she ever was. That’s a mother’s love for you. I’m worried for her, and she’s looking at me like: why is he worried?

I have a great momI’ve seen her hospitalized four times since April, in two different states, and had a lengthy rehab period in between. She’ll likely never be what she was before all her medical issues started, but she’s still here. That’s the best part of it all. Although I say, I’m prepared to lose her, I know that’s lies. As rough as it is to see her hurting, she’s here. I don’t want to lose that. Not in 2016, not ever.

She’s why I can still look forward to what I hope is a better year. She’s why I can dream on, but she’s also the reason why I don’t imagine they’ll all come true. She’s the reason why I might take the phone off the hook and disappear for a while. She’ll be the reason that I can afford to do that for a day or two.

With all credit to the great Billy Joel, allow me to post the lyrics to his beautiful song Vienna, and if you care to read them and listen to the song yourself, I hope you find something in it the way I am right now.

Slow down, you crazy child
You’re so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you’re so smart, tell me
Why are you still so afraid?

Where’s the fire, what’s the hurry about?
You’d better cool it off before you burn it out
You’ve got so much to do and
Only so many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told…
That you can get what you want or you could just get old
You’re gonna kick off before you even
Get halfway through
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you’re doing fine
You can’t be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it’s so romantic on the borderline tonight
Tonight…
Too bad but it’s the life you lead
You’re so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you’re wrong, you know
You can’t always see when you’re right. you’re right

You’ve got your passion, you’ve got your pride
But don’t you know that only fools are satisfied?
Dream on, but don’t imagine they’ll all come true
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you crazy child
And take the phone off the hook and disappear for awhile
It’s all right, you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize,..Vienna waits for you?
And you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want or you can just get old
You’re gonna kick off before you even get half through
Why don’t you realize,. Vienna waits for you
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Happy New Year. Thanks for reading. I pray 2016 is the year you’ve always wanted. Why? Because you deserve it.

Peace.

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About Earl (EJ) Brewster 284 Articles
Born, raised, and still reside in Brooklyn, New York. I'm in my mid 30's, and I love sports, music, politics, and blogging about real life. You can find me on Twitter at @EJ_Brooklyn_Own

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  1. Thank you, Earl. I feel like you have given me a peek inside yourself — and I like what I see.

    The world can be hurtful and can be even worse when it hurts people you love and care about.

    Growth can result from this. You have helped me realize Vienna awaits me, and you as well.

  2. Thank you Appleseed. I try not to get personal and really reveal myself but this blog is my admission that I am hurting. I have been down for weeks now because the holidays can be hard enough for some people and to face this time with someone you love who’s ailing, it felt even worse.

    I need to remain positive but I think I needed to be honest with myself and that’s what this post was about. I’ll be OK. Even if I’m not right now.

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